It's time to fucking make things happen. Everytime my friends n I plan something it always backfire. Even the adventure cove trip with bi doesn't go well. In fact, almost every trip we plan didn't work out in the end.
From now on, I'll use my old method of doing things. Too much of me compromising n saying "it's okay, there's always a next time."
From now on, whatever I want, I'll get it. I don't wanna waste my life like this anymore. It's sickening. It makes me feel dead. Utterly disgusted by the way I live now. I'm always at home reading a book or watching tv. I mean, there's nothing wrong with that but there must also be a time where I'm having fun ma? I'm not even into drinking now. I'm so desperate for fun I just want to be outside, with u n just relax.
I'm going crazyyyyyyyy
