Ring ring....Supposed to go cycling today @ Pasir Ris. But stupid him say he tired and also because of my pants... GRRRRRRR.Gonna continue my drama, sibei sian nothing to do at all. Waste my time! :@
Yesterday: Sk > Hougang > Serangoon > magical place with S, ahdai & ZhongYu. Then back to hougang alone to find boyfriend. Dinner at rp with S. Slacked awhile and hsh. :)--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Alright, I suck @ BS. Fk S man, got killed many many many times nb. Hahahaha but it was fun!! Enjoyed the game but I realised that my lappy's mouse got a lil prob. Hmm, have to fix it soon or else I'll never kill S in this game.I will own him one day!!!!!! >: Gonna bathe now, then to SK to find S. Hopefully at night I can see baby...??? I love watermelon. Random. ^^
BillybalaBOOOOO.
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.
When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers “I’m fine” after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
When a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says “I love you”, she means it.
When a girl says that she can’t live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says “I miss you”, no one in this world can miss you more than that.
I love my life. :D Gonna go play BS and watch movie liaozzzzz.
Buaiibuaiiiiiiiiiiii.
Yup, no second thoughts. YOU.
Hmm, today is N' Maths p1. Suck. Totally screwed up.
Left 5 pages blank. Totally blank. Fml.
"It's like a ghost you heard of it but never seeing it."
As quoted from a smiley face in my tagboard. :-) Cute cute.
Heh, this sentence so familiar yea. Someone told me this before. Yup, I agree.
You can't see love, you can only feel love.
Guess I'm too young to know what is the true meaning of this big four letter word "LOVE".
But I know I've given my all in this r/s and I won't regret being together with you.
Actually all I want is just a simple care from you. I never insist on you being a 24hour boyfriend.
Although what you said the other day was quite hurting when you said that "I'm not a 24hour boyfriend ok."
Well, does that mean that you're my part-time boyfriend? Hmmm.
When I'm frustrated, it's obvious I'll turn to you what. I mean, you're supposed to be comforting me, no?
But you wouldn't. Okay you did. For awhile. Half an hour. But it hurts because again, you said something that hurt me.
"I tolerated for 22 minutes already, can I go sleep now?"
It was afternoon, for God's sake. Okay I know, that day you didn't want to meet me because you said you were tired and you want to sleep. So yea, I give you sleep. I did hang up the call to let you sleep.
I tried okay. I tried not calling you again. I called Michelle, I called Mandy. But they didn't pick up my calls what. So I called you back and I just wanted to hear some nice words from you. Some nice, comforting words from you to prove that even if I have the lousiest mood at that point of time, you'll be there to hold me and tell me that baby, everything is gonna be alright.
I was crying real badly because of my mood but you totally hanged up my call and didn't pick up my call since. Two days later, I found out that you lied to me. You actually went out @ 7plus and lied to me that you're sleeping?
When I was spam calling you all the way from 10 o' clock? You went out @ 7plus. When I called you @ 10pm, you still didn't pick up. You said you were afraid that I'll be angry that you went out when you didn't meet me.
But look. How many times have you told me that you're not meeting me because you want to meet your friends? Did I not let you be with you friends? I don't chain you up and pull you around me.
Ok no big deal that you lied.
But why? Why lie? Do you know that it hurts when you're being lied to? Do I ever do that to you? No.
So why must you do this to me? I may not have the best temper in the world, I may not be the most gentle girl but at least I don't lie. I don't fucking lie.
When I want to go out with my friends, you say no. I immediately don't go.
Who I go out with, I'll tell you.
I give you the respect that you should have as my boyfriend, but did you?
You said you'll treat me better. Is this how you do it?
When I found out that you lie to me, did I scold you? No.
I was totally disappointed with you. You're not that boy that I know 15 months ago.
No matter how much I miss you, things will never be the same again.
Because you've said too many things that hurt me. Done too many things that make me disappointed in you over and over again.
When I want you to send me home, you said no.
When I want you to send me to your house downstairs, you said no.
When I want you to send me to the lift, you said no.
Ridiculous, it's only to the lift. Fucking less than 20 steps. But you also don't want.
I only wanted you to send me to the bus stop yesterday, do you even know why? Because it's our 15th month. I wanted something to let me remember it by.
At first, I want you to fetch me from school, you don't want. Send me to the bus stop when I going home, you also don't want. Have lunch with me, you also don't want.
Just a simple action from you, it's 'nuff to make me happy for the whole day. I only want you to show your care more. But you couldn't even do sucha simple thing for me.
IT'S JUST FUCKING SENDING YOUR GIRLFRIEND TO THE BUS STOP, DUDE.
When I get home, I wanted to clarify things with you. I wanted to tell you the reason why I didn't reply you when you called my name.
I asked you, do you know why I'm angry at you? You said yes. That makes me sadder. Because if you know why I'm angry, then why do you still do it to make me angrier?
I wanted to talk to you peacefully, talk things out w/o quarrelling. But you rather focus on your game. I know, it's only a small matter of sending me to the bus stop. But ask yourself, how long have you last shown your care for me?
I gave you two choices,
1: To break up.
2: To give in to me on certain days which is on the 4th (our monthsary). And by giving in is only sending me to the bus stop. That's all.
But I guess you focus on your game too much, and then you said "Break la break la."
Wow. I thought you'll choose option2 cuz it's like fucking easy and it can make both of us happy? But I was wrong, ofc.
You're a very good boyfriend. The only thing is that you need to show out your care more.
Still got alot to rant lei, but my hands tired already. Lol.
Anyway, you're the best boyfriend I've ever have. Maybe I'm not the girl that you can shower your love with, but I still wish you luck.
-I've never asked for much, I only need you to show your care.
And it hurts 'cuz you can't even do it. When all along I thought you were the one for me. Love.
Happy 15th to you. The special you.
Hmm. Today is a special day to me.
Every 4th of the month is a special day since fifteen months ago.
But today is a special sad day for me. I thought I'll be happy today. But no.
Can't believe that today will be the last day I'll be seeing you ever again.
Have you ever had your heart broken over and over again?
Have you ever tried to believe the one you love will really change for you?
Have you ever love someone but afraid that one day when you wake up, he will tell you that he don't love you anymore?
I wont be the naive girl that always believe that promises are meant to be kept.
I wont believe in magical places anymore.
I won't believe that if I just believe that you will change, means that you will.
I won't believe in believing anymore.
So many more things to say to you, but I can't seem to place them into a sentence.
Let's just believe that you will find someone better than me.
I want the one I love to be happy always. This time I give up. I tried means and ways to make you happy.
But maybe I'm really not the one for you. S is right. I should change.
Goodbye naive, hello evil.
Take care.
Yesterday: I went to watch "Legend of the Fist :
The return of Chen Zhen" with Baby, his mommy & eldest sister, and S. Nice nice nice. :D
He is my new idol lalala. :D I like the way he is in the movie!! He's so rough to all his enemies yet so gentle to all his friends. I like. <: Being gentle is goooooooood. :-)
After movie, went 435. Bi and S ate char kwey teow . Then slack awhile with Donovan and off to my magical place!! ^.^v
Like FINALLY.
But my magical place become haunted place already. :( Me don't like! S was scaring me and bi all the way... He keep say later got small girl sitting there or what. Then he suddenly place his hand on my shoulder and WAAAAAAAAA. SCARY Y'KNOW!!! =.=
But I still love that place although it looks so haunted now. Hehe.
Today: I went to study with S @ sk. He taught me 2 maths questions. :) But most of the time we were playing games instead of studying. Studying is such a bore... :(
Eeeeww.
Now I'm @ home already, but going compass point later as bi's friends wants to shop for clothes or something. BORING.
I wanna go my magical place again tonight!!! :( I want see those three stars and I want to breathe in fresh air.
Lol.
